Today, i started off my morning quite badly...
Wake up, arm kinda could not move... Have been sleeping on my left side for the past two days and my back don't really feel good without tossing and turning... Hence i missed my lesson which is my fault... Okie...
Then i receieved a phonecall at 9 plus and it was from my OB tutor... Miss Ho is a darn nice person but i just do not understand why some of them just got a grudge against her... Well, perception error i guess, whatever...
She was like, i have known that your group went to see the subject leader without my knowledge, i would need to see your whole group today... I stunned as i did not go to see the subject leader! Then i remembered my group leader mentioning that we should see the subject leader to show our SINCERITY... So i replied erm, i think so.. So my tutor was like, okie, fine, then please come and see me after school today...
When i ended the conversation, i know something is wrong.... I have a feeling that my tutor was just saying that she was going to find the subject leader to scare us.. I mean, we handed up the report late, it is really our fault and we have no right to argue... Never mind, so i sms my groupmates and found out that they really did go and see the subject head without me there and without me knowing... Call that a group...
Fine, so i went to school, had lecture, then was asking my group leader why did she go and see the subject leader? I mean, when you asked me that question, i already said no, we should not as we might be making things big.. Maybe our tutor did not intend to tell in the first place!!! Response: no, we should tell, show our SINCERITY..
Fine, i was fucked up and pissed already... Then i say maybe our tutor was trying to scare us so we will learn... Then my group leader can say: then it is her fault to say she will discuss with the subject leader but not do it.. She say what she must do what... *FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND* Wouldn't it be good if she was just to scare us and not make thing big? Sometimes i really wonder how the human brain works...
So we went to see our tutor and i love the comments she made... She say, why did you all go and find the subject leader, didn't i promise that i will talk to her and get it settled with asap then inform your group? Then a groupmate had to say, WE THOUGHT IT WOULD SHOW OUR SINCERITY... *FUCK WITH THE SINCERITY SHIT* Then my tutor ask, so what did the subject leader tell you.. I replied with i do no know, i was not there.. Can ask my group leader.. I know i very bitch, but i am sorry, you guys started it first...
Then she said by doing that, you guys are not showing me(my tuor) respect... I TOTALLY agree with what she say lah!!! I was extemely tempted to say, told you all already but NO, don't want to take my opinion into consideration.. Fine, so be it... I am just glad that my brains are much more sensible...
I am glad that it has been settled though we have to face the consequences by deduction of marks.. Okie, our fault, we deserve it... I am also to be blame and i do not deny it...
To sum up:
REALLY FUCKED UP WITH MY GROUP
FUCKED UP WITH MYSELF
FUCKED UP WITH SCHOOL
FUCKED UP WITH PROJECT
FUCKED UP DAY
Equals to my day... I am so damn pissed that i could really use a punching bag... Though i have to say that there are only 2 people in the group that i am not pissed with, the only one of the different gender and the only name that has 4 characters...
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
bad day
Today is ultimately not a good day... I started off with a happy morning as usual as i was looking forward for training... Then we had consultation in the morning which was quite screwed... I mean, she had the report for like the past 2 months, now then she tell us our mistakes when submission is thia friday... Dumb lah... Never mind, so we decided to edit lots of what we had done...
Then we went for lunch... Was happily eating and when i finished my meal, i was asking, so have we submitted our OB report... My group leader kinda forgot it as it slipped her mind i guess... From her expression it was quite obvious that she did not remember... Then i asked again what time do we have to submit it, and she said by 12pm.... So i decided to get the report files and done with and was ready to submit... Then i receieved a phonecall from our tutor... She asked " Sheryl, where are you?" And i replied with i am on my way to submit the report... Then she kinda got pissed and said "DO YOU KNOW THE REPORT IS DUE AT 10AM?! YOUR GROUP IS 2 HOURS LATE" And i stunned... So i decided to run up to submit and explain to her... Was climbing up the stairs and i happily tripped and fell... Then luckily Veronica was with me hence she took the report and went to submit it...
Well, i am with bruises now on my right side of my arm and thigh.. Not deep, but bruised and painful.. Hahaz... Then when Veronica came down, she gave us a piece of bad news... That we would be at least marked 2 grades down.. I almost broke down at that moment of time as i dd not want to lose my chance of going to Shanghai...
Then we decided to go and see our tutor to apologise to her... Our whole group thought that the submission deadline is at 12pm when it is at 10am... Seriously, i have never made such a STUPID MISTAKE yet... It is just so pissing off.... Then when i went to see my tutor with the whole group, my tutor was so angry that it really scared me... Then i broke down as i do not want to score badly... OB is the only project that we have the most confidence in...
Haiz... The rest of the day was normal and i did not swim.... Stupid shit... Race is just this Sunday.... Sometimes i wonder, when matters like this happens, whose fault is it? I would say that i am at fault too, cause i was too dumb to relay on others but not myself...
SCREW THIS SEMESTER AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO END!!! DREADING EACH DAY OF SCHOOL!!!
Then we went for lunch... Was happily eating and when i finished my meal, i was asking, so have we submitted our OB report... My group leader kinda forgot it as it slipped her mind i guess... From her expression it was quite obvious that she did not remember... Then i asked again what time do we have to submit it, and she said by 12pm.... So i decided to get the report files and done with and was ready to submit... Then i receieved a phonecall from our tutor... She asked " Sheryl, where are you?" And i replied with i am on my way to submit the report... Then she kinda got pissed and said "DO YOU KNOW THE REPORT IS DUE AT 10AM?! YOUR GROUP IS 2 HOURS LATE" And i stunned... So i decided to run up to submit and explain to her... Was climbing up the stairs and i happily tripped and fell... Then luckily Veronica was with me hence she took the report and went to submit it...
Well, i am with bruises now on my right side of my arm and thigh.. Not deep, but bruised and painful.. Hahaz... Then when Veronica came down, she gave us a piece of bad news... That we would be at least marked 2 grades down.. I almost broke down at that moment of time as i dd not want to lose my chance of going to Shanghai...
Then we decided to go and see our tutor to apologise to her... Our whole group thought that the submission deadline is at 12pm when it is at 10am... Seriously, i have never made such a STUPID MISTAKE yet... It is just so pissing off.... Then when i went to see my tutor with the whole group, my tutor was so angry that it really scared me... Then i broke down as i do not want to score badly... OB is the only project that we have the most confidence in...
Haiz... The rest of the day was normal and i did not swim.... Stupid shit... Race is just this Sunday.... Sometimes i wonder, when matters like this happens, whose fault is it? I would say that i am at fault too, cause i was too dumb to relay on others but not myself...
SCREW THIS SEMESTER AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO END!!! DREADING EACH DAY OF SCHOOL!!!
Saturday, July 21, 2007
EXCITING DAY CAN!
Today is ultimate exciting can!!! Hahaz… Last night play majong until like 530… Morning had to go for project… Not so happening yet… Then!!! It all started…
I was told to go parkway so that I could hop on to the car later… So I went there and waited for like 45mins lah!!! But can’t blame anyone, it was the slow moving traffic at Eunos area. Then we dropped Xue Ying’s mum at Raffles City and we happily decided to zoom off to Holland Village… We went round and round Orchard then finally decided to move on to Holland Village… To be frank, we were kinda lost… Hahaz…
Then we were approaching the ERP machine, but we had no cash card!!! ARGH!!! So everyone in the car went into a frenzy mode in search of the SACRED cash card… Hahaz… Then no one have, hence Jonathan had to reach to his back pocket to dig his wallet out… By that time we were like 50metres away from the machine only… So I went into a second frenzy mode to find his SACRED cash card, but did not manage to find… Then there was this “BEEP” and we were like OH NO!!! Hahaz… Then we went into the third frenzy mode wondering how much we would be fined for crossing the ERP without putting in the SACRED cash card…. Some say 10plus, some say 30plus… Hence Mr Jonathan decided to get stressed up and it was quite funny… Hahaz… Friend, sorry that I did not manage to find your SACRED cash card on time… I promise that I will pay the split of the cost… Okie, then after many u turns we managed to reach the bike shop…
Bike shop not so happening, so not much… Then we left and decided to go to Funan the IT Mall to have dinner at Subway!!! Okie, after that we walked around and I saw that my laptop that I bought last week is $400 cheaper now… Like WTH…. Hahaz… Then we decided to go home after a while…
The journey home was happening… Because we had 6 people, we had to squeeze at the back… Then it was just after the NDP rehearsal thing, so there were A LOT of police and traffic police… As I was at a corner and rather small size, I had to hide constantly whenever we pass a policeman… Best part was that a traffic police was just beside the car only… Thankfully Evelyn and Xue Ying covered me up… Thanks friends.. And the guys, they were just laughing lah, especially WILSON!!! He was damn evil today, say I BIG, say put me in the boot, say I should be on the roof and all… Eh, I could be evil then make you take MRT know friend… But hot stuff forgiving, so its okie… Hahaz…I had to hide from the policeman from like Suntec there all the way to ECP… I was like cramping everywhere, but it was really really funny… Hahaz…. Then we send Evelyn home, Wilson to Kai Wen house and we happily went to see Wei Yang’s fat cat… So cute… Hahaz… After that we decided to find Annette and go back to Xue Ying’s house…
Hahaz.. Jonathan, you not bad know… Confident and steady even though we had godzillion frenzyness… Never band or what, small fine never mind lah ah…. Hahaz… Hahaz… Well, Xue Ying, your turn will come soon yeah and I am looking forward to it… Hahaz…
Okie, then went home with Jonathan and then there was an accident at my house the junction there… It was quite bad lah… the girls, got one crying in shock and another was unconscious with a man holding her in his arms…. Haiz… Sometimes things are just so unpredictable… Okie, I think I should end here le.. Today’s entry like very very long…
In summary, XUE YING, JONATHAN, EVELYN, WEI YANG, GRACE, WILSON AND THOMAS, thanks for the great day today… Xue Ying’s mum, thanks for lending the car to us… And Jonathan, thanks for being the driver…
I LOVE YOU ALL GUYS!!!
I was told to go parkway so that I could hop on to the car later… So I went there and waited for like 45mins lah!!! But can’t blame anyone, it was the slow moving traffic at Eunos area. Then we dropped Xue Ying’s mum at Raffles City and we happily decided to zoom off to Holland Village… We went round and round Orchard then finally decided to move on to Holland Village… To be frank, we were kinda lost… Hahaz…
Then we were approaching the ERP machine, but we had no cash card!!! ARGH!!! So everyone in the car went into a frenzy mode in search of the SACRED cash card… Hahaz… Then no one have, hence Jonathan had to reach to his back pocket to dig his wallet out… By that time we were like 50metres away from the machine only… So I went into a second frenzy mode to find his SACRED cash card, but did not manage to find… Then there was this “BEEP” and we were like OH NO!!! Hahaz… Then we went into the third frenzy mode wondering how much we would be fined for crossing the ERP without putting in the SACRED cash card…. Some say 10plus, some say 30plus… Hence Mr Jonathan decided to get stressed up and it was quite funny… Hahaz… Friend, sorry that I did not manage to find your SACRED cash card on time… I promise that I will pay the split of the cost… Okie, then after many u turns we managed to reach the bike shop…
Bike shop not so happening, so not much… Then we left and decided to go to Funan the IT Mall to have dinner at Subway!!! Okie, after that we walked around and I saw that my laptop that I bought last week is $400 cheaper now… Like WTH…. Hahaz… Then we decided to go home after a while…
The journey home was happening… Because we had 6 people, we had to squeeze at the back… Then it was just after the NDP rehearsal thing, so there were A LOT of police and traffic police… As I was at a corner and rather small size, I had to hide constantly whenever we pass a policeman… Best part was that a traffic police was just beside the car only… Thankfully Evelyn and Xue Ying covered me up… Thanks friends.. And the guys, they were just laughing lah, especially WILSON!!! He was damn evil today, say I BIG, say put me in the boot, say I should be on the roof and all… Eh, I could be evil then make you take MRT know friend… But hot stuff forgiving, so its okie… Hahaz…I had to hide from the policeman from like Suntec there all the way to ECP… I was like cramping everywhere, but it was really really funny… Hahaz…. Then we send Evelyn home, Wilson to Kai Wen house and we happily went to see Wei Yang’s fat cat… So cute… Hahaz… After that we decided to find Annette and go back to Xue Ying’s house…
Hahaz.. Jonathan, you not bad know… Confident and steady even though we had godzillion frenzyness… Never band or what, small fine never mind lah ah…. Hahaz… Hahaz… Well, Xue Ying, your turn will come soon yeah and I am looking forward to it… Hahaz…
Okie, then went home with Jonathan and then there was an accident at my house the junction there… It was quite bad lah… the girls, got one crying in shock and another was unconscious with a man holding her in his arms…. Haiz… Sometimes things are just so unpredictable… Okie, I think I should end here le.. Today’s entry like very very long…
In summary, XUE YING, JONATHAN, EVELYN, WEI YANG, GRACE, WILSON AND THOMAS, thanks for the great day today… Xue Ying’s mum, thanks for lending the car to us… And Jonathan, thanks for being the driver…
I LOVE YOU ALL GUYS!!!
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Reality check
Yesterday was doing project till i got quite stress, hence i decided to wurf the net and updat meself a little... Read something that i did not want to see, cause it reminds me of the past and it hits me real hard all the time...
It is like you never know who are the people who really enjoy your company and who are those that just try to entertain you... Come to think of it, i am not sure whether are those people still like that, or they really like me as a friend...
No matter how thick skin i am, i am still a girl and have feelings like tofu... I might seem real strong and boyish on the outside, but there are also times that i feel weak and girlish... Sounds weird... Hahaz... Like what my mum loves to say, i am a boy in a girl's body... Hahaz.. Thats quite saddening...
Back to the topic, thinking bout the incident that happened not really long ago, it made me ponder if whether do i make a difference? Maybe it was the timing that did not allow me to perform to my best, but maybe it is just me who is not up to the challenge... Was i the best candidate in mind? Or was it just a decision made to save time and get things done and over with... I never knew who was for and against me, but i guess after what i have done, even those for me will turn against me... Maybe not so bad that we become enemies, but al least learnt that i am not up to the challenge...
Okie, now for some happy stuff so i can stop speaking emo stuffs again cause it is never good... Hahaz... Just bought a new laptop, so YEAH!!!! Hahaz... A new Compaq laptop that costs $1899... My mum and i felt that it was quite a good buy so we bought it yesterday at Harvey Norman... But they cheated my mum into buying a 2nd year warranty at $189 when HP was selling the 2nd year warranty for just $99!!! Wha, then my mum got quite a bad feedback from my dad... Sorry mum... Thanks and i just love you both...
Then i went to meet LISA in the night for dinner and had some good stuff for dinner... Hahaz.. Cannot say... We chat and updated each other on what is happening... Thanks babe for taking the trouble to have dinner with me when you were at home... I am happy with such simple things that you are able to do... Well, i do not mind if we do not meet up, but i will be super glad if we do...
OH! Went for majong session on saturday night... Wha lau, i win quite a few times, but then win small... Xue Ying and Jonathan win only win so big, sucked all my chips away... So sad lah!!!! Still thought that we i woul not make any losses...
Okie, i got to go.. Lesson start le... Bye friends... Love you all, especially my Majong Kakis!!!
It is like you never know who are the people who really enjoy your company and who are those that just try to entertain you... Come to think of it, i am not sure whether are those people still like that, or they really like me as a friend...
No matter how thick skin i am, i am still a girl and have feelings like tofu... I might seem real strong and boyish on the outside, but there are also times that i feel weak and girlish... Sounds weird... Hahaz... Like what my mum loves to say, i am a boy in a girl's body... Hahaz.. Thats quite saddening...
Back to the topic, thinking bout the incident that happened not really long ago, it made me ponder if whether do i make a difference? Maybe it was the timing that did not allow me to perform to my best, but maybe it is just me who is not up to the challenge... Was i the best candidate in mind? Or was it just a decision made to save time and get things done and over with... I never knew who was for and against me, but i guess after what i have done, even those for me will turn against me... Maybe not so bad that we become enemies, but al least learnt that i am not up to the challenge...
Okie, now for some happy stuff so i can stop speaking emo stuffs again cause it is never good... Hahaz... Just bought a new laptop, so YEAH!!!! Hahaz... A new Compaq laptop that costs $1899... My mum and i felt that it was quite a good buy so we bought it yesterday at Harvey Norman... But they cheated my mum into buying a 2nd year warranty at $189 when HP was selling the 2nd year warranty for just $99!!! Wha, then my mum got quite a bad feedback from my dad... Sorry mum... Thanks and i just love you both...
Then i went to meet LISA in the night for dinner and had some good stuff for dinner... Hahaz.. Cannot say... We chat and updated each other on what is happening... Thanks babe for taking the trouble to have dinner with me when you were at home... I am happy with such simple things that you are able to do... Well, i do not mind if we do not meet up, but i will be super glad if we do...
OH! Went for majong session on saturday night... Wha lau, i win quite a few times, but then win small... Xue Ying and Jonathan win only win so big, sucked all my chips away... So sad lah!!!! Still thought that we i woul not make any losses...
Okie, i got to go.. Lesson start le... Bye friends... Love you all, especially my Majong Kakis!!!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Terrible semester...
Have you ever encountered the times where you know that a project idea would not work but just decide to agree as you know that you will not be able to convince them that it will not work? It is so frustrating when this happens ad you know that you cant do anything but just sit back and wait for the results to give everyone a reality check...
And another one is that friends that just forgets your existence and only find you when they are in trouble or when they have no one else to talk to... I am guilty of this too when i was in relationships in the past... But have since woken up... I do not blame my friends for being like that, maybe i am just unhappy or jealous that now i do not get to spend more time with them...
This semester, much has happened and it has not made my life any easier... I really wanna sincerely thank my teammates for being there for me when i needed them... Especially the girls... I doubt i could survive in school if i did not have the chance to distress... Hahaz.. Not forgetting the guys like Wei Yang, Jonothan, Thomas, Rennie and so much more that cheer me up and do nonsense stuff when we are together... Really rock man... Triathlon batch of 2005 to 2007 rocks my world to the ultimate...
Candice, chaplin, swee kee and keng kee, thanks for just being there when i needed a person to talk to or just to find a makan buddy... Hahaz... My fake husband jaren too, thanks for putting up with my nonsense and giving me a ride when i need to... You all rock my friends!!!
I have given up much hope with my secondary school friends or even my poly mates as we all are busy with our own lives that we do not get to meet... Whatever would be my answer now cause i really do not care anymore.. If we meet, it is an incentive, if they are there for me, i am extra glad... If not, i will just live my life as it is and don't even bother... At least it makes my life much happier and not make me seem like a despo that i need them to be there always...
What is the point of being friends when they only find you when they are in trouble and goes to another when they are in joy? It is like you are there for them, but are they? I can definitely say that many of my friends are like that, but for my teammates, i feel happy and comfortable with them and i hope we can maintain it till we kinda get old and stuff... Hahaz... Thinking too far ah...
So i shall end here and get started with my projects... Love you all my friends, even though i might not be one to you... Smile!!
HOT STUFF GOING SHANGHAI IN 2 PLUS MONTHS TIME!!!
And another one is that friends that just forgets your existence and only find you when they are in trouble or when they have no one else to talk to... I am guilty of this too when i was in relationships in the past... But have since woken up... I do not blame my friends for being like that, maybe i am just unhappy or jealous that now i do not get to spend more time with them...
This semester, much has happened and it has not made my life any easier... I really wanna sincerely thank my teammates for being there for me when i needed them... Especially the girls... I doubt i could survive in school if i did not have the chance to distress... Hahaz.. Not forgetting the guys like Wei Yang, Jonothan, Thomas, Rennie and so much more that cheer me up and do nonsense stuff when we are together... Really rock man... Triathlon batch of 2005 to 2007 rocks my world to the ultimate...
Candice, chaplin, swee kee and keng kee, thanks for just being there when i needed a person to talk to or just to find a makan buddy... Hahaz... My fake husband jaren too, thanks for putting up with my nonsense and giving me a ride when i need to... You all rock my friends!!!
I have given up much hope with my secondary school friends or even my poly mates as we all are busy with our own lives that we do not get to meet... Whatever would be my answer now cause i really do not care anymore.. If we meet, it is an incentive, if they are there for me, i am extra glad... If not, i will just live my life as it is and don't even bother... At least it makes my life much happier and not make me seem like a despo that i need them to be there always...
What is the point of being friends when they only find you when they are in trouble and goes to another when they are in joy? It is like you are there for them, but are they? I can definitely say that many of my friends are like that, but for my teammates, i feel happy and comfortable with them and i hope we can maintain it till we kinda get old and stuff... Hahaz... Thinking too far ah...
So i shall end here and get started with my projects... Love you all my friends, even though i might not be one to you... Smile!!
HOT STUFF GOING SHANGHAI IN 2 PLUS MONTHS TIME!!!
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